咖啡人生

一种咖啡可以喝出多种不同的独特味道，它有一种让人无法抗拒的独特魅力，苦涩中缴杂着酸味。大量的泡沫就像年轻人轻挑的生活，而泡沫的破灭和那一点点的苦涩又像是梦想与现实的冲突。最后品尝过生活的悲喜后，生命的香醇回甘却又让人陶醉，这就好像正值青春期的青少年一般，在享受过童稚、美好的时光后，便要开始面对踏入成人世界的冲击，真正尝到人生的原味，除了甘甜之外，还有一份苦涩。起初闻起来时味道很香，第一口喝下去时，可以感觉到大量奶泡的香甜和酥软，第二口可以真正品尝到咖啡豆原有的苦涩和浓郁，最后当味道停留在口中，你又会觉得多了一份香醇和隽永。

其实人生就像这浓郁的咖啡，有苦涩也有香醇，浓烈中不乏至纯至真，不同的人不同的场合不同的心境，所品出的滋味也是迥然不同的。加了糖的咖啡苦中带甜，丝丝沁人心脾，兑了牛奶成为咖啡伴侣，有淡淡的清香回味无穷。这糖和牛奶就是一种良好的调味剂，因为有了它的调和，才使原色的咖啡更具迷人的魅力。人生也是如此，如果没有调味剂就会显得单调枯燥，加的太多又完全变了味道。关键在于适度，在于自己的掌控，适当的添加调味剂会使人生更加有滋有味，芳香飘溢。

曾经叹息痛恨过命运的不公，抱怨过生活的冷酷，可后来明白命运掌握在自己手中，明白了伤感过后，天空仍是蓝蓝，风雨过后，阳光依旧灿烂，只是我们的日子匆匆飞过，从此一去不复返。若是一味地沉湎于往事里，沉浸于怨恨中，改变不了什么，也不会有任何好处，最后伤的还是自己。何不忘却所有的苦难，沉淀所有的悲伤，让自己快乐起来？何不给自己的咖啡适量加点糖或牛奶，使其爽心可口别具风味？

喜欢坐在市区咖啡馆里，一边聆听悦耳的慢音乐，一边细细地品味苦中带着缕缕甜味的咖啡，心情恬淡怡然。静静地回味自己走过的路，终于幡然醒悟，不是所有的付出都会收获成功，有句话说“成功有时不在于你怎样的努力拼搏，而是在于你的选择”，我的不成功正是因为我无知错误的选择。但事情总是一分为二的，并非所有的失败都一无是处，经历了曲折苦难磨练了意志，走过一路泥泞才懂得平淡从容是真，穿过黑暗更会感觉光明的可贵，丰富的人生阅历本身就是一种无形的财富。

相信命运在折磨你后，又会给你开启另一扇通向幸福的大门，只是你要及时好好把握这个机遇，千万别一错再错。

过去的已经成为历史无法更改，再回首，我报以微笑。将来还是一个未知数，遥远难测。只有今天是真实的，一定要好好珍惜，可以不富有，但不能没有快乐，可以失去许多东西，却不能丢失笑容。

25 Minutes

"This is twenty-five minutes too late

Though traveled so far

Boy I'm sorry you are

Twenty five minutes too late "


One of my favorite song by MLTR since young, grow up with it, guess I will grow old with it too.

Remembered vividly days back, while rushing for train to go work, just by a split second, the door of the train shut right in front of my eyes, resulting I've to wait for another seven minutes. Probably to many others, is okay, just have to wait for the another one that is coming.

However, how many of us has think otherwise that, with that seven minutes we might have reach work place early, might be able get some thing done faster ? If we are running late, that seven minutes might save us from being late etc.

A split second different can result in many different consequences, someone might just pass on, a student might get detention for being late, a officer girl might get reprimand for being late in meeting. However all these could be prevented if we have proper planning to what we wanna do, such as by leaving house early, that we don't have to run after the train, we could even have enjoyed the morning freshness while walking, which could entirely changes a person attitude for that particular morning, a lot thing could be prevented, there is only one thing on this earth, that we can't take charge of it - falling in love.

Yes, falling in love with a person. Something that is beyond our control. No one knows who is waiting for you at the next turning corner, or who might walk into your life the next moment, and thus make a difference in your life. Many of us yearn for a simple love life, happily ever after, is simple yet hard to fine, but forcing yourself to accept a love that can't allows you to be yourself, is one miserable thing that you ever did to yourself.

Didn't chose to stay single, but choosing for the right relationship that you've desire for. Just like you desire to go France, you won't be silly enough to purchase an air ticket to Canada. Is hard to find, but you know some day you will find it. Just don't be too late.

Every minutes matters.

Some thoughts

Buddhism sees suffering as a psychological phenomenon with a psychological cause - wanting, craving, and desire. And our experience tells us that this is so. When we want something and cannot get it we feel frustration. Even if we get what we want we soon grow tired of it and begin to want something else. Even physical suffering is caused by  craving because the strong craving to live causes us to be reborn  and when we are reborn we become subject to sickness, accidents, old age. Buddha says that even the bliss of heaven is impermanent and imperfect, a fact again confirmed by the bible. The bible tells us that Satan was originally a heavenly angel but that he rebelled against God ( i.e he was dissatisfied) and was cast out of heaven ( i.e. existence in heaven need not be eternal). If having been in heaven and one can fall from that state this proves that heaven is not perfect and everlasting as some had said. (See Is, 14:12-15; II Pet, 2:4; Jude, 6; Rev, 12:9 ).

過去、未來

時間猶如細沙般，從指縫划過，轉眼見，我已經揮別了那懵懂無知的青春。我的青春都在哭過，笑過，怨過而度過，重要是那些不期而遇出現在我生命的裡的人，不論是好或壞，都在我青春裡揮了一筆色彩，永不褪色，助我成長。

而我這從以前就情有獨鍾蒲公英的平凡的蒲公英女孩，要昂首闊步，迎接那未知的未來，帶著蒲公英的花語，去親手建造自己的未來。在這裡把過往的都放下，塵封過去，帶著早已留在心中的美好，踏向未來的懷抱。

夢幻的星期五 10.05.2013

昨天第一次出席了畢業晚宴，猶如夢幻般的不真實。當然也要感謝我的好姐妹Jacq的幫忙，讓我有小小的幸福感。在宴會中，看到全校的材男才女，自己難免會捫心自問，我真的有那麼好嗎？因為昨晚的宴席，是專門為全校優秀生而籌備的。
同時也遇到了我的好友AV,要不是他把我給攔下，恐怕我們又要插肩而過了。借此和他歇肩照相留念，留念著我們這三年的友情。自從實習起到昨天，有超過半年沒見面了，再見到他時，有種好像過了一個世紀那麼久的感覺。他隨沒多大的變化，但在那燦爛的笑容裡，添了幾分成熟感。
回憶第一年，我們在攀岩活動上相識，後因為大家也是同一組的屬於冒險社團的一份子而變好朋友。我記得每次對他發牢騷時，他都靜靜的凝聽，偶爾會給我一些建議。儘管每次老愛在語言上嘲弄我，弄得我氣鼓鼓，但最後還是會請我吃雪糕，降降火。有時考試時期，會相約一起讀書，雖然我們是不同繫。他讀他的飛機工程，我讀我的護理。有時也會閒聊各方的未來。後來在第二年尾聲，接任了社長職位，生活變繁忙了，大家的學業也繁忙起來了，搓成偶爾會碰面吃個飯，敘敘舊。儘管如此，那友誼卻沒變質，因為我們都瞭解彼此。回想，選擇繁忙只是一個藉口，因為曾經周遭的人問了一個我無法說服他們的答案，時彼此為了不想為對方增添不必要的煩惱，而選擇下策。但這些都過去了，有些話也沒必要說了，大家也長大了。
熱愛騎轎車於攀岩，對貓咪情有獨鍾的陽光男孩，上輩子不知道修了什麼福氣，今生能交到那麼好的朋友，不止他，還有那些我的好姐妹與死黨。

凡外：再邂逅他的昨天，心裡突然冒出一個問號，如果沒有那麼多如果，我們是否能減少許多不必要的遺憾或錯過呢？

向左走还是向右走？

迷茫，郁闷，一丝后悔？复杂的情绪。
今天已经向人事部提出要求，也和＂姐姐＂交谈过。人事部随答应协助我，但是最后决定还是在于上头。现在只能等。
不久前，也和家母再次谈此事，很明确她希望我待在人事部所给我的部门，而我也动摇了。很可笑吧！我已经在两个部门里面，衡量过好与坏，它有的好，它没有。各有千秋。对于我来说，我在哪里都一样，只是不希望家母不开心，毕竟母亲最清楚我的一切。
若选回最初的选择，我必须牺牲一些东西，可若选择自己想要的，家母未必会开心，而我自己也会怕，自己无法胜任，毕竟在那里实习过三个月，导师对你的期待会提升。
向左还是向右？选择拥有平静的转移，还是挑战性的三年？
我不知道，听天有命。

Sleepless

Should be sleeping by now, but am tossing here and there on my bed. Culprit of me not sleeping, credit to an email I received from HR during the night. Informing me that I been selected to be posted to that department. Great disappointment sank me when i read the email. Understood that was my second choice, however I am not that passionate to be in that area, I only sees it as a challenge.

Although has already send in my appeal and decided to head down tomorrow, to get recommendation and assistance for transferring. Deep in my heart, knowing that the chances are low, just being stubbornly fighting for that 0.1% of hope.

Do understand that in life, things happened for a reasons, however there are times where people overcome the reason and succeed in what they love.

Always remember this line : not till the end, never give up, desperation might turn into hope.
Is just the future is too blind for me.